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Wednesday, October 7, 2009

The Last Stronghold (working short)

The lights beamed through the trees of some forgotten grove. Len and his two daughters were on high alert. They had made it for 9 hours through the town of Fairmont and now squatted anxiously in a grove just 135 feet north of the Martin County Fairgrounds.

“I’m tired, daddy.” Coral whispered to him, “When are we going to rest?”

“Soon, honey.” he said stroking her sweaty hair, “Do you see the fairgrounds over there?”


She pulled back the branches of the birch tree they were crouched by. There ahead of them stood the high fence of the fairgrounds. High field lights lit up the area. She remembered going here every August with her family. Now, it was being patrolled by National Guardsmen and civilians with shotguns.

“Yes, I see it.” she answered in a melancholy voice that broke Len’s heart, “Is that where we’re going?”

“We’re going to try.” he answered scanning the surrounding area.

“Is mom going to be there?” Leigh, the oldest asked.

“I don’t know, honey. Hope so.”

“What if she’s not?” Leigh’s voice started to crack.

“We can worry about that when we get there, honey. Right now, we need to work on getting in there, okay?”

“Daddy!” Coral said out loud, “There’s one!!”

“Shhhhhh!” Len put his dirty hand over her mouth, “They’ll hear us.”

A wobbly figure came from the shadows and into the light of the field lights. Walking with some purpose, slowly limping its way toward the fence. It was hard to get a clear view of it from this far back, but they knew what it was.

Just then, gun fire erupted from one of the guardsmen and with efficient accuracy the figure’s head exploded after only two shots and it fell to the ground.

“Got it!” the shooter hollered to his cohorts.

Len shielded both his daughter’s eyes from the scene. They shuddered at the sound of gunfire.

“Are they done, daddy?” Leigh asked.

“Think so, babe.” He looked off to where the figure came from to see if any others came.

“Okay, kids.” he uncovered their eyes, “It’s time.”

They broke cover and ran into what used to be the grass parking lot. It was covered with mud from the previous rains.

Some of the guardsmen shouted at them as they trudged towards the gate.

“Don’t shoot! Don’t shoot!” Len shouted.

“Get down! Get Down!” the guardsmen were shouting.

Len looked behind him and off to the left came three of them. One was female and the other two were male. Half rotted and running impossibly on deteriorating sinews. Their eyes blank like all the rest and mouths caked with dried blood from their former feasts.

“Oh God!” Len pushed his daughters to move faster.

His foot got stuck in a mud puddle and he went down. His daughters stopped and looked back at him.

“Daddy!!!” they screamed in unison. Leigh tried to run back to him.

“Keep going!” he yelled at them, “Get to the fence!”

They stood in horror as the three figures came shambling rapidly towards them. Len got back up on his feet covered in mud and grass.

“Go, goddammit!” he yelled at them.

“Daddy!!” they yelled just as the female had closed in on him and knocked him down.

The stink was horrendous, pungent with decay. Her breath of sour meat and her skin rubbing against his own, dry and leathery; where he could sense the dead flesh under it. Like a fish trying to wriggle from beneath her. Her teeth kept snapping at his skin.

“Oh god! Oh God! Oh God!” he yelled at the top of his lungs trying to stave off those murderous hungry teeth shown through ragged lips.

The other two males came at him as well, he could hear their moans of new found food. Then shots rang out in the night air. Something was hit, and he was hoping it wasn’t one of his daughters as they screamed. Another shot and the shoulder of the female atop him blew apart and her arm came off. Maggots spilled into his face as he groaned in repulsion.

Another shot over the sounds of his daughters screams again. This one struck the center of the female’s head and her dead eyes rolled up into her skull and she fell forward onto him. He gagged with the smell.

He shifted onto his stomach as the female slid off to his side. He crawled hurriedly onto his feet when he saw that one of the males had been killed and was lying in front of him, the other was rushing up on him. He turned, hearing an oncoming hiss, and a bullet cut its way through the things eyeball, scattering the remains of its head behind it. His girls were at the fence being pulled into the other side as they screamed for him.

“Run daddy!!” they yelled, Len not knowing if there was another behind him. He had lost a shoe and the ground was too thick to run fast.

He heard two shots and then accompanying hisses past his head. A grunt behind him and then a thud as whatever it was hit the ground.Without breath he made it to the gate and collapsed into the arms of a stranger who was holding a 9mm. Leigh and Coral ran into his arms crying.

“Let’s get you three inside the hockey arena.” one of the men said

The three of them were given chemical showers as a precaution, and then given new clothing. There was a cache of new and used clothing from WalMart and the Salvation Army. Also stacked up along the bleachers inside were rations of food and medical supplies.

“Do you see mom anywhere?” Leigh asked.

He looked around at the people moving nervously about the hockey arena. He didn’t see her.

“No, but she could be helping somewhere else too, kiddo.”

He expected to see more people, but as it was in here, there were only about 36 that he counted. Perhaps there would be more in the other buildings.

A National Guardsman came up to him, holding out a .45 caliber pistol and an M-16. His daughter’s eyes widened as he took the weapons.

“You are to remain armed at all times.” he said, “You will be set up for sentry duty on a rotating shift. Until that time, you and your family are to remain inside this building unless instructed otherwise. Have you handled a firearm before?”

“Yes.” Len answered trying to absorb the situation.

“Very well, there are plenty of open cots available, and food is rationed out 3 times daily by the Salvation Army. Any questions?”

“Daddy, ask about mom!” Leigh insisted.

“I’m looking for my wife.” Len asked awkwardly, “Her name is Amy Emerson. She is a nurse at the hospital. I’ve lost contact with her when….when…well, when this all began.”

The young soldier looked grim, “We’ve mobilized everyone from the hospital here. Anyone from there or who has any medical emergency were issued to the 4-H building.”

“So she could be…”

“Sir?” the soldier added quietly, “There was a confrontation at the hospital. The hospital was overrun with these things. Not a lot of people…survived the skirmish…I can’t guarantee your wife is here with us.”

“Can I go over there and see if she’s there?”

“I’m afraid you’re not allowed to leave the building until your sentry duty comes up, I’m sorry. But we have to keep those not on duty inside, otherwise you could either get mistakenly shot, or killed by those things. Trying to keep you safe, sir, and you probably need your rest anyways.”

“I want to see mom!” Leigh whined.

“Me too!” Coral added.

“We need to rest right now, kids. We’ll try to find her in the morning, okay?” Len pleaded.

“Is mom dead?” Leigh asked. She was always the grim one.

“I don’t know, honey.” then he corrected himself, “No, I’m sure she’s fine. Probably helping over at the med center here. We’ll find her, okay?”

That didn’t appease her, but they both were exhausted from the day’s events and let him lead them to a cot. An old woman came over with a couple of brown bags filled with food.

“You look famished, honey.” she said to the kids, “Better eat something before you head off to sleep.”

“Thank you.” Len said and took the bags from her.

Inside there was PBJ sandwiches, bags of chips, and apples. They all three wolfed the food down and chased it with a carton of milk.

He tucked his daughters in to their cots and sat stroking their hair until they fell asleep.

“They’re angels.” the woman who handed them the food complimented.







“Hmm?” she shook him out of somewhere else, “Oh, thanks. Yes, they are…they look like their mother.”







“You from the Fairmont area?” she asked making small talk.







“No, not originally. We’re from Minneapolis. My wife took a job down here as a nurse up at the hospital. We’ve been here for about 8 years.”







“Name’s Ruth, Ruth Gaiman.” she held out a large calloused hand. She must have been a farmer, he guessed.







“Len Emmerson.” he shook it, “Nice to have met you.”







“What did you do, Len, before…all this happened?”







“Well….I was a writer. I used to write commercials for Mankato KEYC-TV. Guess I won’t be doing much of that now. And you?”







“Oh….I used to farm with my husband Neil.” she took on an expression of sorrow, “But he didn’t make it through this…this…scourge.”







“I’m sorry.”







“Not as sorry as I am, Len. I’m the one who had to put the bullet in him. If you don’t hit those suckers in the head…they keep coming.”







“I’m hoping my wife is over at the 4-H building helping with the med center there.”







“Well, Len, you’re in luck. I go on sentry duty in about 45 minutes. I’ll run over and check for you if you’d like. If I find her, I’ll tell her you’re here.”







“Oh, God, that would be wonderful!” he sighed with relief, “Wake me if I’m sleeping, but I’m fairly certain I’ll be awake most of the night.”







Surprisingly enough, he was wrong. He went right off to sleep after she had left him. It was dreamless and he only awoke once in awhile to check on the kids.







The next morning Len was awoken by Coral pulling at his shirt.







“Daddy, get up!” she ordered. She sounded excited about something, “Daddy, hurry, get up!!”







He opened his eyes and looked around trying to get his bearings and then focused on the set of blue and brown eyes that looked at him joyfully.







“They found mom!!” Leigh spouted, “She’s not here, but she is with an army guy about 5 miles from here! She’s okay, dad, she’s okay!”







The news woke him up immediately. He hugged his kids and kissed their heads. He then wondered what happened to Ruth.







“Have you guys seen Ruth?” he asked them.







“Who’s Ruth?” they asked still buried in his chest.







“The lady that gave us food last night, have you seen her?”







“No.” Leigh answered.







“Who told you about mom, then?”







“The army guy who gave you the guns. Can we eat now, daddy? I’m hungry.”







“Me too.” echoed Coral.







“Yep.” he stood up stiff but feeling well rested and famished, “C’mon, let’s go guys.”







He passed by the young soldier he was briefed by last night, “Excuse me, I heard you’ve found my wife?”







“Yessir.” the young man said, “Her and another infantry man are holed up right now down on Woodland Avenue. He contacted us by shortwave.”







“Will you be sending a rescue party to get them?”







The boy cleared his throat, “No, sir. I’m sorry. But if they’re to get here, they’ll have to do it on their own. We can’t risk any more personnel and there are just too many of those things out there to count. We have to keep this perimeter secure….It’s the last stronghold for miles.”







“But, that’s my wife out there…these children’s mother! How can we just sit here while there are survivors out there?”







“I understand, sir, I truly do. But I’m afraid those are orders. She’s in good hands, Mr. Emerson, Ronny was in Afghanistan with me; he’s a good soldier.”







Len wanted to take off to find her but he knew he couldn’t bring his girls with nor leave them behind. He’d have to figure something else out.







“Do you know where Ruth Gaiman is?” he asked the soldier, “She was on sentry duty last night about 2:30am?”







“Dead, sir.” the boy looked down.







“Dead? How can she be dead? I just talked to her last night?”







“We had a breach last night on the east perimeter. She was overtaken by about 4 of those things. By the time we dispatched them, she was far too gone to save.”







“Oh, my god.” he gasped, suddenly losing his appetite.





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The kids ate their share of scrambled eggs and hash browns. He only played with his own food with thoughts of Amy in his head. He wanted to figure out a way to get to her without putting the kids in danger.







Another group of about 4 kids came over to their bleacher and asked if Coral and Leigh wanted to play. Len nodded at them and they went off reluctantly to play with them. He threw out their garbage into the trash can and walked over to the soldier he was talking to before.







“Is there any way I can talk to my wife?” he asked hopefully.







The young soldier looked around and then said, “Sure, come with me.”







He walked him back to what used to be the ice skate rental office. It was now set up as a command center for the hockey arena. A few soldiers sat in front of computer screens and ham radio equiptment.







“This is Len Emerson.” the soldier announced, “His wife is with Ronny down on Woodland Avenue. Have we heard anything from them recently?”







One of the other soldiers took off his headset, “Yeah, just spoke with him about 10 minutes ago.”







“Can I talk to her?” Len asked.







“Sure.” the soldier said and stood up offering him his headset, “N-zero-K-I-P, this is Martin County Base, come in, over.”







There was a long pause and then, “Martin County Base, this is N-zero-K-I-P, over.”







“We have Amy Emerson’s husband here and he’d like to speak with her if that’s possible, over?”







Len’s stomach fluttered with anticipation.







“Len?” it was her voice, and he immediately grabbed the mic.







“Amy!!” he shouted, “Oh my god, Amy, thank god you’re all right!”







“Lenny! How are the kids, are the kids all right?”







“Yes, they’re fine…scared, but fine! Are you okay, honey?”







“So far.” she coughed a bit into her microphone. It was a juicy cough that got him worried, “It’s been real tough, almost didn’t make it here.”







“What’s wrong? You sound sick?”







“I’m okay, honey. I was attacked at the hospital, I escaped in an ambulance when I tried to make it home. But everything is so crazy out here…I lost control of the ambulance and flipped it….This nice young man found me and we made it here. But, I’ve been bitten by a few of those things, making me feel really sick. I gave myself some morphine to keep the pain down.”







He panicked. He didn’t know what a bite from those things could do, but he was sure it couldn’t be good. If she was ill, Ronny the soldier wasn’t going to be able to mobilize her quick enough to get through any attack. They were going to have to stay where they are.







“Are the kids by you?” she asked.







“No, but I’ll get them.” he went out into the arena and found them playing a game of UNO.







“C’mon, guys, mom’s on the phone!” he lead them back cheery to the command post.

Friday, October 2, 2009

A Few Bumps with Big G


A Few Bumps with Big G
by Brad Bodeker

“You wanted to see me?” said the Big G as he sat down beside him belly up at the bar.

Rodney looked over at him. The Big G wasn’t at all what he expected. Black curly hair slicked back with pomade. He had on a white dress shirt with a thin black tie, a pinstripe coat with matching pants.

The bartender came over, “What’ll you have, buddy?”

The Big G looked at the liquor selection, “I’ll take a Manhattan, no ice.”

So, the Big G drinks Manhattans? Rodney thinks to himself with a grin and then tells the bartender, “Top me off here, willya?”

The bartender hesitates, knowing how drunk Rodney Delaney is already, and then looks at the Big G.

“Double malt scotch, isn’t it, Mr. Delaney?” the Big G asks.

“Yep.” Rodney answers.

Big G nods and the bartender pours it full.

After his sip, Rodney looks over at Big G, “Are you really…I mean, are you…?”

“I am.” Big G confirms, “Now what is it you needed to talk to me about, Mr. Delaney?”

“Get the fuck out of here!” Rodney laughs, “You’re no more ‘the Big G’ than I’m St. Patrick! Get out…you frickin’ moke!”

The room gets quiet and the bartender tenses up. The Big G looks up at him and winks and everyone returns to business as usual.

“I really don’t have time for these games, Rodney.” the Big G looks at his watch, “I do have other appointments today.”

“Oh, I’m sure you do, you’re like Santa Claus, ain’t ya?”

“You have 30 seconds, Mr. Delaney, otherwise, I need to move on to my next appointment.”

The Big G raised his glass to his lips and Rodney watched the Manhattan drift into his mouth. He wasn’t sure if he had enough liquid courage to speak out to the Big G and say what was on his mind. Not everyone got an audience with the Big G, and he only had a few seconds left.
“Time’s up, Mr. Delaney.” the Big G said as he put his glass down on the bar, “Maybe next time I visit, you won’t beat around the bush with this sideways anger.”

As the Big G stood up from his barstool, Rodney Delaney grabbed him by his pinstriped suit coat.

“Hold on!” He shouted, his face red with rage and liquor, “You gave me 47 years of misery and then give me 30 seconds to talk about it? You’ve got a lot of fucking nerve!”

The Big G stopped as well as everyone else in the bar. A smile came to the corner of his lips and you could hear sighs of relief throughout.

He turned towards Rodney and sat back down. The bartender looked at him, the Big G nodded, and was poured another Manhattan. He pulled out a cigarette from his breast pocket and lit it. Blew out a plume of smoke and stared into Rodney’s face.

“47 years, Mr. Delaney?” he asked with that smile still caught on the corner of his mouth.

“Give or take!” he spat, “I’ve had nothing but hell and misery!”

“Mr. Delaney….Rodney….did you not have good parents?”

“Well….yes, they provided for me, but they used to fight sometimes! Sure, I had a nice home…we did family vacations…but my dad used to hit me and my mother all the time! He had a short fuse and sometimes I thought he would kill my mother! Then when mother found out he was cheating on her….fuck…she lost her mind! She just fucking lost it…and I was just a kid and I didn’t know what to do!”

“In a way, your dad taught you a valuable lesson.” the Big G said calmly.

“A lesson?” Rodney’s anger started to flow again, “How is beating the shit out of me and my mother teaching me a lesson? Spare the rod Spoil the Child? Is that your almighty wisdom?”

“He taught you how not to be a father and how not to be a husband.”

“Well….”

“Because you were a good father, and you were a good husband, weren’t you?”

“That’s the key word there, ain’t it?” anger and calm were playing on the seesaw of his heart, now hurt came to play, “I was a good father! I was a good hus-!”

A lump in his throat coagulated and he started to sob. After a bit, he wiped his eyes and drew his handkerchief from his back pocket and blew his nose. He looked around at the bar and then bitterly at the Big G.
“You fucking bastard.” he said under his breath, “You fucking took them from me!”

“Why is it, Mr. Delaney, that whenever someone around here dies it’s my fault? Whenever something bad happens it is all pinned on me?”

“Because you’ve got your hands in everything!”

“Like people don’t have their own minds? Their own wills to go about and do things against my orders? You want me to rub out everyone that disobeys my direct orders?”

Rodney drank a small sip from his scotch.

“Why not?” he finally answered, “I would.”

“You’re not me, Mr. Delaney, you never could be. If I began to eliminate every single person because they didn’t obey me, there’d be bodies miles high. Because not everyone is perfect, are they? I couldn’t single out a single offender…it would have to be a zero tolerance effort. If that were the case, then I’d have to take you out as well, Rodney.”

Rodney shivered. Started to think that maybe he shouldn’t have called the Big G here. He could rub him out right here in front of everyone and nobody would bat an eyelash.

“What did I do to deserve this?” Rodney asked quietly, “I tried to be a good man. I tried to obey your orders…but I feel like I’ve been kicked in the face for it. Unnoticed.”

The Big G put his neatly manicured hand on his shoulder, “You didn’t ask for this. For any of this. Nobody ever does, Rodney. Things just happen, and you take what you learned from whatever past you came from and try to steer around it. That’s how it works.”

“My Stella….” Rodney began to cry again, “…my baby Janey….”

“They’re with me now, Mr. Delaney, rest assured I’ll take good care of them.”

“That’s bullshit!” anger rose up so quickly from hurt, “I need them!!! What do you need them for?? Don’t you have plenty of people with you already?? Why did you have to take them from me?? You son-of-a-bitch!!”

With that, Rodney cocked his calloused fist back and released it into the Big G’s face. Big G landed on the floor and the bar patrons stood from their tables looking on in horror.

“I’ll kill you, you bastard!!” he landed a kick to the Big G’s ribs.

“You can’t kill me, Mr. Delaney.” the Big G spoke calmly. He did not attempt to fight back, nor did he attempt stop Rodney from his assault.

Rodney grabbed a nearby beer bottle and broke it on the lip of the bar and then started stabbing the Big G in the neck with the jagged edges.

Blood spurted out and a crimson stain bloomed on the neatly starched collar of the Big G’s white shirt.

“Get up!!” Rodney shouted, “Get up, you son-of-a-bitch!!! Fight me!!!”

The Big G only sat up. Dabbed his finger on his collar and assessed the blood on his fingertips.

“I’m not going to fight you, Rodney. Just let it out.”

Rodney grabbed him by his gored shirt collar and stood him up. He went forward with his forehead into the bridge of the Big G’s nose. Over and over again, after the first two his nose snapped and spurted blood from his nostrils. He cocked another haymaker and let it flow right into the jaw of the Big G. A couple teeth jettisoned from his mouth and his jaw looked unhinged.

He grabbed a barstool and pummeled the Big G over the head with it. The Big G went down. The barstool broke apart and Rodney found that all he had was a busted leg of it. He beat the Big G repeatedly with the leg over and over again. He was sobbing as he struck.

It was relentless, the others around only stood there with mouths agape waiting for some sort of retribution from the Big G. But the Big G only laid there still on the ground while being pummeled by this madman who couldn’t seem to stop the bludgeoning insanity that had let loose within him. He was crying out, cursing the air, spitting on the Big G.

Finally, he stopped. He collapsed onto the ground gasping for breath. His knuckles hurt, and his head throbbed. But most of all, guilt welled up inside of him like a wave of stomach flu.

“What have I done?” he finally sobered and realized what he was doing. “Oh shit, oh shit!”

He sat up and looked at the Big G who lay prostrate on the floor. Splinters of wood and glass around, on and in him. A large jagged laceration on his neck which blood was starting slow. Blood decorated his askew jaw as well and his neat clothing. The Big G’s skull was caved in part way from the right ear to the bridge of the nose.

“Oh shit!” he repeated poking the Big G’s body, “I’m sorry….I’m so sorry.”

He looked around and everyone tried to look away from his gaze. He was alone in this one, and he knew he was going  to pay for what he had done.

“Somebody help me!” he yelled to the crowd. No answer came, “Help me, dammit!”

They all just started to walk slowly backwards, towards the door.

“Oh no! Oh no! Oh no!” he started to sob again, but it seemed like there was no tears left in him. His body started to cool from the layer of angered sweat that coated his body from a few moments ago.

Just then a hand landed on his own bruising throbbing knuckles.

“It’s okay, Mr. Delaney.” said a voice beside him. It was the Big G, “No harm, no foul.”

Rodney Delaney looked up and the Big G was restored whole again as if nothing had ever happened.

“What…..what the hell?”

“It’s out of your system now, Mr. Delaney.” the Big G stood up and helped Rodney to his feet.

“But I….I thought I killed you….you should be dead from what I did to you…this doesn’t….”

“I told you that you couldn’t kill me. I’m the Big G, afterall, I don’t go down easy.”

“But….”

“It was all necessary. To help you heal.”

“I need a drink.”

“That’s one thing you don’t need, Rodney. Not now. C’mon, lets go get some air, shall we?”

Rodney looked into the Big G’s eyes. Looking for something in there that said, step outside, Rodney, because I’m going to make a mess of you before I kill you.

But there was only kindness in those eyes that he couldn’t make out the color of. They both walked out of the bar together without looking back.

When they stepped outside into the fresh St. Paul air, Rodney felt clean again. In fact, there were no more blood spatters on his skin and clothing. That dirty caked sweat was gone and he felt as if he’d taken a nice hot shower. Even the booze induced intoxication was absent.

“I…I’m new again?” he asked the Big G.
“In a way. You’re still Rodney Flint Delaney, with the same life you had before we met, the same absences you had in your life, nothing’s changed on the outside.”

There was still an ache in his heart when he thought about his wife and his daughter. But it wasn’t a cold piercing stab, it was a warm hole in his heart. Even a tear flowed restlessly from his eye.

“You’re a good man, Rodney. It’s good to have a man like you in the family. There aren’t a lot of people like you around.”

“But in there…I….” he felt shame wash over him.

The Big G brushed it off, “We all fall, Rodney, happens to the best of us sometimes. I forgive you, so forgive yourself.”

With that, he produced a fedora that Rodney didn’t notice he had before and put it on top of his own head.

“I’m off to my next appointment, Mr. Delaney. If there isn’t anything else?”

Rodney looked up at the blue cloudless sky and then down at the Big G, “No. I don’t think so…..”

“Are you sure?”

“Well….can you tell Stella and Janey that…I love them and miss them?”

“They already know, Rodney, they can hear you and feel you. But I’ll remind them. Enjoy the rest of your evening, Mr. Delaney, tomorrow is another day.”

The Big G walked off into the crowd, disappearing into that ocean of people. Rodney stared at the spot he last saw him for about a half hour. Then he looked around, a small smile formed at the corner of his own mouth, and he walked home.




Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Lost (working novel)


this story developed when i lived in Minneapolis. I was in rush hour traffic heading home from work. It was hot and miserable. one of the things i do is look at the cars around me and wonder what their story is. Then, something hit me: there's an abducted child somewhere on this freeway, stuffed in the back of some strange truck or van, and they'll never see their mother or father again...it was a horrible thought, and then my mind started working on this story...

Lost


Lost by Brad Bodeker



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She was running late. It took forever for them to get ready in the morning. As always the damn snooze button lured her into another morning of sleeping in, so it was flying in and out of the bathroom then getting Natalie up and dressed and ready for school and another lame excuse to the boss as to why she was late. Another morning of fighting with her to get her hair brushed.

“Nat, stop it!” Barb was in no mood for this game.

“Don’t, you’re pulling my hair, mommy!” Natalie protested.

The brushed pulled at the snarls in her long brown hair. With each pull of her locks she’d whimper and pull away.

“Dammit, Nat, be still!”

“It hurts, mommy, it hurts!”

Barb looked into her daughter’s hurt blue eyes. They were so big and round and innocent. But just a hint of Natalie’s father. The bastard, wherever he is!

A touch of guilt tugged her heart, “I’m sorry, honey, but we’re going to be late.”

Natalie settled down a bit and sucked her thumb. Five years old and still sucking her thumb. Barb thought to herself, Poor girl, I wish I could give you a little more security.

Natalie’s father, which Barb considered nothing more than a sperm donor, left shortly after she was born. Had to find himself, he had told her, said he needed to find himself in Alaska. She had found out later from a friend of a friend that he found himself another girlfriend in Seattle. He sends a card once a year during the holidays for Natalie, but she never let’s Natalie know about it. Bastard.

With Nat’s hair done, it was time to fight to get her shoes on. It was game Natalie played since she was four. To Barb’s frustration, she would kick her legs so Barb couldn’t get them on. With one shoe on, Natalie would use her other foot to kick it off again.

The clock read 8:54 am. Yep, I’m late!

Barb got Nat into the car, and off they went to the school parking lot. The parents all lined up along the semi-circle. Moon Valley Elementary School’s principal, a Mr. Guttenhelm, always stood with the front door of the school open welcoming the kid’s into class as the day began.

“Good morning, kids!” he was accustomed to saying, “Ready for another good day.”

The children never answered him, but he would just smile complacently with that smile that would make Barb just a little nervous.

“Good morning, Ms. Winters, how are you and Natalie this morning?” he greeted.

“Fine, Mr. Guttenhelm, thank you.” Barb would say back.

“Good, good.” He gave her that look, the one privileged people give not-so-privileged people do. “Off to work?”

“Yes, and running late.”

She bent down and kissed Natalie on the cheek and hugged her, “Have a good day, honey, mom loves you.”

“Bye.” Nat said, she gripped Barb’s hand a little tighter.

“I’ve got to go, honey, mommy’s running late.”

“I know.” Natalie’s head was down, her blue eyes sad.

“Come on, Natalie,” Mr. Guttenhelm grabbed her other hand. “Mom will be back to pick you up before you know it. Shall I walk you to your class?”

Natalie didn’t answer. Barb felt guilty, I wish I didn’t have to go to work, Nat. I would much rather just spend the afternoon with you. But, I’ve got to make ends meet, so we can eat and live. I’m not getting help from the sperm donor!

Before Barb knew it, Natalie was going down the hall with Mr. Guttenhelm. She waved an unseen ‘good-bye’ to Natalie and went off to her car.

She took a deep drag on her first cigarette of the morning. It felt good. She only smokes when she’s away from Natalie, because the last time she lit up in front of her she never heard the end of it. All those anti-smoking lectures they were scaring kids with these days! But she always promised herself she’d quit. Someday.

She arrived at work a half-hour late. She slithered through the back hallway, and into the break room. She punched in and made it to her desk before her boss, Angie Bollinger, came in.

“What’s the story today, Barbera?” she asked leaning against the doorframe with her arms crossed.

Barb sighed; a million and a half excuses went through her brain. The wet blanket of sarcasm dripped from Angie, and flashes of red ran through Barb’s face.

“No story today, Angie.” Barb answered. “I’m just running late.”

Barb thought about explaining what it’s like to try and get through a morning with a 5 year old, but decided it didn’t matter. Besides, Angie was a career woman. Not a mom. Nor, she had announced at a business luncheon, would she ever want the anchor of children to weight her down.

“You must get your priorities straight, Barb.” Angie explained, “You can’t just start whenever you want to.”

“I know that, and I’m sorry I’m late. It won’t happen again.” Barb’s face was warm more with anger than embarrassment.

“There’s a lot of other people that can do your job, you know. People that are punctual.”

This bitch was trying to egg her on, give her an excuse to get fired.

“Don’t you depend on this job to raise your daughter?” She continued.

Barb’s fist clenched under her desk. Use my daughter in a sentence, bitch, I’ll fuckin’ kill you!

“Priorities, Barb,” she mercifully was turning away. “Priorities.”

Barb’s tongue came out as Angie went out of eyesight. She let out a big sigh and wished she could grab another smoke. The stack of work wasn’t as high as yesterday, but high enough to let her know she’d be working late.



At lunch, Barb called her friend, Jessica to pick Natalie up, as she would probably be here at work until 6. Jessica said she wouldn’t mind. Her own daughter was in a grade ahead of Natalie and she had to pick her up at the school anyways, and the two girls played well together.

So with that all set, Barbara continued the rest of her day as if nothing would go wrong. She never heard a peep from Angela again, and aggravation from the rest of the details from her job stayed at bay. After a pot of coffee and 5 cigarettes, her day was flawless. But whatever cruel god prevailed over her life, decided it was time to give her a reality check.



2.

“Mamma” Columbia lay awake most the night. She had trouble sleeping like most nights, but tonight was different. Perhaps it was the silence of the country, the way it was almost deafening at night. Or maybe the complete blackness of the night. Either, she thought she was used to; she had lived here most her life. There was something agonizing to be thought about in her mind, she just needed to be able to focus on it.

Her “boys” were in their room playing their video games. Shouting every once in awhile at dying their pixilated deaths and then ‘shushing’ each other, as they knew their “mother’s” wrath, if she was awakened by their shenanigans.

Mamma Columbia rubbed her rough calloused hands over her naked bloated body. Wandering her abdomen and then to her privates and up to her stomach again.

It’d be nice to have a child of mine own. She thought to herself. Why hath the Lord forsaken me with a barren womb?

A tear fell from the corner of her eye and into her ears. She sniffed a few times and then sighed, Be it Your will. Be it Your will, then bless me with a child.

And whether the voice was one fabricated from her own mind or an actual true supernatural voice, it was there. The voice was familiar from her childhood.

Is thou not happy with the children I’ve blessed thou with? It said to her, Doth thou become greedy with mine gifts?

She shuddered, No, Lord. No. You are right; I am blasphemous for even asking for such a thing.

Her god was silent for a while and Mamma Columbia began to whimper.

Thou hast shown great faith in Me. He finally spoke up. And I shall show you mercy. If ye seek, so then, shall ye find.

She sat up in bed, eyes wet but with the expression of joy on it.

On your knees, woman, and thank me for that which I will give to you!

Obediently, she knelt there naked in the dark, her hands in the air, her mouth in a perfect “O”, and she pleased her god the way she had been taught when she was a nine-year girl. And echoing in her mind was what her god said, “Seek and Ye shall find.”



Jessica waited in her Dodge caravan impatiently. She had left the stove on simmer and was hoping to be in and out of here with the kids and home for supper. But, as the ocean of little faces poured from the doors of Moon Valley Elementary, she looked for her own daughter Carrie and Barbara’s daughter Natalie.

Steve Miller came over the radio and she turned it up. She had been a huge fan of the Steve Miller Band since she was a teenager and more so since she had gone to their concert in Minneapolis last year. “The Joker” twanged from the speakers and she began to ease and sing along.

…really love your peaches wanna shake yo tree…She sang, her favorite part. She glanced towards the door that Carrie usually came out of. Just one kid after another, a few she recognized from birthday parties and all that other “mom” stuff. But no Carrie, no Natalie.

…I’m a Joker, I’m a smoker, I’m a midnight toker…The crowd of kids spilling out of the school began to thin out. Jessica, sighing to herself, thinking the girls were probably running around the hallways and goofing around. A bit of anger flashed in her and she shut her van off and began to walk to the front doors of the school.

Mr. Guttenhelm, standing there smiling like he does in the morning, greets her with a handshake.

“Here to pick up Caroline, Mrs. Alberson?” he asks.

“Carrie.” She corrects, “And I’m also picking up Natalie Winters as well, have you seen them?”

“Earlier today, but not this afternoon.” He welcomed her into the school, “Come on, and let’s find them. I’m sure they’re just playing somewhere.”



“Hurry up, Natalie, mom’s going to be mad!” Carrie says to Nat who was in the stall of the girl’s bathroom.

“I know, I know!” she says a bit peeved.

“C’mon, Nat!” Carrie urges, “Everyone’s leaving!”

“Leave me alone!” Natalie says; it came out more like “Lee mee lone!”

The toilet flushed and Natalie came out holding her backpack and then washed her hands like her mom taught her to do. Germs, Natalie, mom would say, germs that will get you sick. So remember to always wash your hands after you go potty, okay?

Natalie suddenly got lonely for her mom. She felt it come on after she received the note from the office lady saying that she was to ride home with Carrie’s mom, Mrs. Alberson, because mommy was working late. Again.

Minutes after Jessica and Mr. Guttenhelm passed the girls lavatory, Carrie and Natalie walked out into the hallway and towards the front doors. Carrie spotted her mom’s van and they both ran out to it.

Carrie grabbed the handle of the side door and gave it a yank like she had since she can remember in her six-year-old memory. Her hand slipped off of it and smarted. She tried it again and it didn’t budge.

“What’s the matter?” Nat asked standing there with her thumb in her mouth.

“It’s locked.” Carrie stood there confused.

She looked in the front of the van on her tiptoes and couldn’t see anything. She tried those doors and they were locked as well.

“Now what, Carrie?” Nat asked not letting go of the thumb in her mouth.

Carrie looked around the parking lot and then said, “Maybe mom went inside to look for us. You did take forever in the bathroom.”

“I know!”

They both trotted back into the school, not noticing the old rusted blue van with road dust crusted to its fenders and quarter panels. It’s motor gurgling from the large hole in its exhaust pipe. Waiting.



Jessica and Mr. Guttenhelm paced the hallways of the kindergarten and 1st grade wing. They were empty except for a few teachers coming in and out of their classrooms. A janitor emptying the trashcan by the drinking fountain.

“Let me check with Carrie’s teacher.” Jessica said, “And you check with Natalie’s, okay?”

“Of course!” Mr. Guttenhelm answered. His expression was one of worry. Not so much for the girls being ‘missing’, but the reputation of the school would be at stake.

Jessica couldn’t find Ms. Ginnacci in her room, so she headed down to the teacher’s lounge. Mr. Guttenhelm found Mrs. Holmquist in her room cleaning up some construction paper off the carpet.

Mrs. Holmquist said that Carrie had come down to her room to pick up Natalie and they both left together.

Jessica found Ms. Ginnacci in the teacher’s lounge puffing her way through a Camel light. Ms. Ginnacci said that she excused Carrie early to walk over to Mrs. Holmquist’s class to pick up her friend. But she hadn’t seen them leave.



Natalie and Carrie couldn’t find Jessica anywhere in the building. They were just going to go down the hall where the teacher’s lounge was but got distracted when they saw the playground outside.

“Carrie?” Nat stared with wide eyes, “let’s go play on the swings!”

“No,” Carrie protested, “We have to find my mom!”

“Awww, c’mon, Carrie! Please?”

“Okay, just for a bit.”

“Okay, just a little bit.” Which came out “N’kay, jus a widdle bit.”



“This is serious, Mr. Guttenhelm!” Jessica was getting hysterical.

“Please, Mrs. Alberson,” he tried to calm the coming storm. “I’m sure they might be in the bathroom or something like that.”

“Fine!” she said, “You stay here and watch for them, I’m going to look in the all the bathrooms!”



Natalie’s giggle was contagious. Both of the girls laughing the way innocent children do. No cares in the world, just a goal to have fun. The autumn air was crisp but not bitter. The smell of the river hung in the air, but it was fall and the water smelled fresh, not rank like in July.

Natalie was the first to notice the woman walking towards the playground. She swung slower as the lady approached. Carrie was saying something to her, but she was concentrating on the lady. There was something Natalie did not trust about her, the way she walked or the way she was staring in her direction.

“Natalie?” Carrie shouted, “Hello, are you listening to me?”

Natalie didn’t say anything back as this woman approached them. Carrie dropped off the monkey bars and clammed up.

“Hello, girls!” the lady greeted.

Both of them just sat there not really looking at her, just at the ground below her.

“It’s okay.” The lady assured, “You shouldn’t talk to strangers. But your mom is looking for you and she’s in the office waiting for you.”

Carrie looked up with her untrusting brown eyes at the lady. She hadn’t seen this lady working before in the office, but she really didn’t pay much attention to the big people of school except her teacher Ms. Ginacci.

The woman bent lightly and held out her hand.

“C’mon, girls,” her smile friendly as warm sunshine. “I’ll take you to your mom.”

Natalie looked to her older friend for direction. Carrie, kind of rocked herself side-to-side trying to decide whether to trust this big person.

“Natalie. Carrie. Come on, now, don’t keep your mom waiting.” The lady said.

Carrie’s eyes lit up when the lady said her’s and Natalie’s name. Maybe this lady did work in the office after all.

“Come on.” The lady said.

Carrie looked over at Natalie who was sucking her thumb again.

“It’s okay, Natalie.” Carrie said walking towards the lady, “Let’s go see my mom and we’ll go home.”

“That’s right, honey.” The lady said.

Natalie took Carrie’s hand and they walked with the lady from the playground.



Jessica, with Ms. Ginacci in tow, was going through the lavatories in the entire school, and peeking in separate classrooms.

“Maybe they’re on the playground?” Ms. Ginacci suggested.

“Which way?” Jessica asked.

Ms. Ginacci led her to the wing where the playground was close to. They walked by Mr. Guttenhelm who looked even more alarmed when he saw them coming down the hall without any children with them.

This is bad! He thought to himself, Really, really bad! The school board is going to eat me alive! The newspaper! That fucking rag is going to plaster this incident all over the fucking place!

“No luck?” he trembled.

“Do you see any kids with me?” Jessica said sarcastically.

“There’s no need to get hostile about this, Mrs. Alberson. I’m sure they’re around here somewhere.”

“We’re going to check the playground.” Ms. Ginacci said.

“Uh, all right, I’ll stay here in case they come by.”

“Good idea, Chuck.” Ms. Ginacci said with some sarcasm of her own.



Carrie wondered why they didn’t just go in through the doors by the playground. They were walking all the way around the school building towards the parking lot.

“I thought mom was in the office?” she asked the woman.

The woman just muttered under her breath. It sounded to Carrie like, Sick ‘n yee shell fine.

They rounded the corner where her mom’s van was parked. She thought maybe they were going to just wait for her mom there. Carrie looked at the woman and then at Natalie who was sucking hard on her thumb.

“It’s all right, Natalie.” Carrie trying to comfort her friend, “We’re going to wait for mom by the van.”

Natalie just kept sucking.

They got to her mom’s van and kept going. Carrie was very alarmed now.

“That’s my mom’s van, ma’am.” She stuttered staring at it as she walked by it.

The lady kept a steady grip on her hand and kept muttering, “Sicken yee shell fine.”

Carrie began to tug hard at her hand as they were gaining distance from her mom’s van.

“But that’s my mom’s van, lady!” she cried out.

Natalie felt her friend’s fear and began to cry, not letting go of Carrie’s hand as she was being tugged in the wrong direction.

“No!” Carrie yelled, “No! Mommy! Stop! Stop!”

Carrie’s struggles were unnoticed by the lady and she slipped up and both her and Natalie ended up falling to the asphalt of the parking lot. They scraped their knees and elbows and Natalie hit the side of her face on the ground leaving a nasty scrape. They both began to bellow out.

The side doors of the rusted blue van and a boy came out. His jeans were dirty as well as his t-shirt. His hair unkempt and long, and he looked to be about 10 years old. Natalie and Carrie got up at the same time; they were both frozen to the ground as this dirty-looking boy came towards them. The lady just smiled at them. Natalie hid behind Carrie and wept while Carrie just started shouting.

“Get away from us! Get away!!”

The boy had two thick gauze pads soaked with chloroform and he placed them over their faces. Natalie went out right away while Carrie kicked a bit and then went limp. The last thing she heard was, “Seek, and ye shall find! And I found me two, Praise God!”



The blue van was gone by about three minutes when Jessica, Ms. Ginacci, and Mr. Guttenhelm came out to her minivan. Sitting on the ground next to the passenger side door was two backpacks. One with Scooby-Doo on it and another with Barbie. Jessica’s heart sank and she thought she was going to puke.

“They must be around here…somewhere?” Mr. Guttenhelm spoke up.

“Would you just shut the fuck up for one minute?” Jessica barked and then started to sob.

Ms. Ginacci rubbed Jessica’s back and said, “Let’s go back in and call the cops.”

“No! No, we can’t just jump the gun on this ladies!” Mr. Guttenhelm sounded as if he was whimpering, “They have to be around here! Let’s just look some more before we call the police, hmmm?”

“Stop worrying about your reputation, Hank, and do something useful for once!” Ms. Ginacci snapped.

Her and Jessica went inside and phoned the Moon Valley Police Department.



3.

Barbara sat in Detective Gunner’s office shuddering from sobbing. She had received the call from Jessica and she just sat in shocked silence as Jessica went on with the story on the other end. She didn’t even hang up the phone as she grabbed her purse and headed straight for her car. The traffic was thick on this side of I-35; she took out her pack of Marlboro lights and began a regimen of chain smoking. Getting across the 169 interchange she had lit another cigarette and then saw she still had one going in the ashtray. She stubbed it out and began sobbing. She thought about getting out of her car and just running to the Moon Valley Police Department.

“Mrs. Winters? ” Detective Gunner said absently.

“Y..yes?” she slowly came out of her grief-stricken stupor.

The Detective gave a comforting grin, “I was wondering if you have a recent picture of Natalie we can use to put out?”

Barb looked around the office. Her guilt was a large wet blanket that hung on her and wouldn’t come off. She hadn’t pictured herself getting pregnant and then losing the father to some tramp in some other state. She didn’t find herself raising a daughter on her own, not being able to give her daughter the life she wanted. And now, here she was in some cop’s office, giving him a photo of her daughter who’s been….kidnapped? Lost? Missing? None of those words comforted her.

“Uh, Mrs. Winters?” the Detective spoke up again.

“What? Sorry.” She sniffed a few more times and then rummaged through her purse, “Yes, of course, I’m sure I’ve got one in my wallet somewhere.”

Jessica had finished her interview with the other detective and came into the office with her husband to talk to her.

“Barb, I’m so sorry!” she began sobbing, “I…wish I would’ve…God dammit!”

“It’s okay, Jessica.” She began crying again, “I just don’t understand how this all happened!”

The detective stood up, “We need as much information as you can give us. We’ve got officers looking around in the surrounding area now for your girls and we’ve broadcasted a missing child alert for both your girls.”

Barb produced last year’s photo she had done for Christmas. Natalie was sitting under a Christmas tree with a Santa hat on. She remembered that day almost perfectly. She trembles; I never thought I’d be giving this photo to a police officer to help find her. I never thought…

“Is this the most recent photo you have, Mrs. Winters?” the detective asked looking thoughtfully at it.

“I think I have one at home from her birthday this year.” She started sobbing again thinking that she may never have another birthday with her again.

“Anything recent would help a lot, Mrs. Winters. I…”

“Ms. Winters.” Barbara corrected.

“Sorry.” The cop’s face flushed a bit.

“Don’t be. I had better call her father. He probably doesn’t give a shit, but it’s his right to know, I guess.”

Detective Gunner thought for a moment and then said, “Ms. Winters, Natalie’s father didn’t put up a fight with custody did he?”

“Grant?” she laughed to herself, “He wasn’t even around when she was born. He was out drinking with his pals down at the Dogg House. Then we separated when Natalie was two.”

“Well,” Detective Gunner thought to himself how to carefully word this, “sometimes, when situations happen like they have, the other parent will have some sort of awakening and decide they want to be a parent, and when they feel that it’s hopeless they’ll get any parental rights after years of estrangement, they will go through some kind of extremes.

“Does the father still live in town?”

She was in the midst of contemplating the possibility, “No. He said he was moving to Alaska and ended up in Washington.”

“All right, it’s still a possibility we can’t rule out, although it doesn’t explain why Carrie was taken as well.”

“Unless he took her because she’d be a witness?” she grasped.

“Possibly.”

Jessica fidgeted with her hands while her husband rubbed her back.

“In the meantime, folks,” the Detective finished, “I would suggest you get together any ideas and photos that can help us find them.”

They all got up, shook hands and left.

“Barbara,” Jessica asked walking down the steps of the Moon Valley P.D. “Would you like to come over for coffee? Or a stiff drink?”

“No, thank you.” Barbara answered. “I should get a hold of Grant, and my mom’s coming up from Mankato.”

“If you need anything, Barb.”

“Same to you, Jess.”



“She what?!!” Grant’s voice bellowed over the line.

“She’s missing, Grant.” Barb said impatiently.

“Well, where the hell were you when this happened?”

“I was at work, Grant!” her anger trying to push it’s way up, but she didn’t want him to know how she was feeling. Never again, bastard!

There was an uncomfortable silence. Barb lit a cigarette, and exhaled loudly over the phone.

“Are you still smoking those fucking things?” he asked.

“I called to tell you about your daughter, Grant, not to discuss my habits.”

“Well, what the fuck am I supposed to do about it way out here in Washington?”

Barb bit down on her cigarette butt and then took another drag.

“Well, I thought maybe you’d care! But, like always, you don’t! I don’t know why I even bothered calling you.”

“Maybe because you just miss me?”

“Oh, God, get over yourself already, Grant! I have!”

“Then why are you calling if you’re over me?” his voice on the other line smug and she could tell he had this shit-eating grin on his lips. This infuriated her even more.

“Good bye, Grant. Have a nice life thinking about yourself.”

“Wait a minute! That’s it?”

“What?”

“Well, I thought we could talk…or something.”

“No, I’m busy trying to find my daughter, not talk to some egotistical piece of shit like you. Good bye.”

She hung up the phone and had a small smile of victory on her face. She put out her cigarette and started going through Natalie’s things. She was trying to find some recent pictures for the police. She found one of her in a pink-checkered dress, standing behind a giant sheet cake with a purple dinosaur on it.

More tears came out of her eyes. Where are you, Nat? Please don’t be scared. Mommy won’t give up looking for you, sweet heart.

Fran, Barb’s mom, brought in a cup of coffee from the kitchen.

“How’d it go, honey?” she asked with some caution.

“How do you think, mom?” Barb answered without any aggression.

Fran paused. They had both been crying the entire evening. From putting together flyers with Natalie’s photo on it, and answering phone calls and making a few to relatives and friends.

“Well,” Fran started, “what do we do now?”

“I don’t know, mom. I won’t be able to sleep tonight, so I’ve got to do something constructive with my time.”

“Why don’t we go around and hang up our flyers?”

Barb took her first warm sip and agreed.



Jessica was already out doing what she could. Her husband took one vehicle and she took another. She had driven by the school about twelve times this evening. Passed the spot where she found their backpacks and slowed down and started to cry and would do her rounds again.

The police were out as well. She had seen them canvassing the area by the school with volunteers. The thought that her daughter may be dead tried to creep in but she blocked it out. Too soon. She thought to herself, Much too soon for something like that to happen. She’s still alive, I can feel it.

Steve Miller came on again, same song as before. She felt the tears well up again and she turned off the radio. She drove the city limits of Moon Valley in silence for what seemed like days. She would nod off from time to time, swerving off the road and then back on again as she snapped awake.



4.

Mamma Columbia sat on her porch that overlooked the Minnesota River basin. The night was quiet, and the small airport behind her property wasn’t flying any traffic in or out tonight. The crickets, sure they were in full sing, but other than that, peace. She could see the lights of Shakopee on her left, Chaska straight ahead, and the town of Moon Valley to the right. She knew that the police would be searching the area, but that didn’t concern her.

She did not live by man’s laws, she lived by the Lord’s. And He, after all, had given these two girls to her. “Seek and Ye Shall Find.” He had said, and that’s just what she did, and the Lord graced her with not one girl, but two. How the bounty of the Lord’s grace made her heart swell.

The girls would have to adjust, of course. They wouldn’t accept Mamma Columbia right away, but they would. Just like Bill and Cory did. Besides, these girls were younger and easier to mold. She checked her watch, a plastic $4 watch from Target, and hollered for her boys.

“Boys!” she bellowed, her voice gravelly from smoking Pall Malls. Her speech had a hint of slur due to dentures that didn’t fit well. “Boysh! You better go feed your shishters!”

The two boys ran down the narrow staircase and headed for the kitchen. They grabbed two mason jars filled with garden grown green beans and then started to the basement where the girls were kept.

“Boysh!” Mamma yelled from the porch, “C’mere firsht.”

They came obediently. Michael, was the oldest, he was 10 years old. Mamma had acquired him (praise God) in Edina at Southdale Mall. He was an infant then, and his unmindful parents, had been arguing during their Christmas shopping spree. God had blinded their sinful eyes from Mamma Columbia snatching him for her own. He was a good boy. Mindful of his manners, and obedient. He was Mamma’s archangel, protective and loyal.

Gabriel, the youngest, at 7 years, was Mamma’s baby. He was taken a few years ago when the Lord had decided that Michael needed a brother. He was at a daycare center in Minneapolis. The daycare aides hadn’t even noticed that Gabriel was gone until his foster parents came to pick him up at the end of the day. He was a little wilder than his “brother” Michael, but always looked to please his new mother.

“Thank you, boysh.” She slurred, “Are you excited to play with your new shishters?”

“Yes, mamma.” They agreed in chorus.

“They’re going to be scared at firsht, so be gentle with them. God has given them as your shishters so treat them as such, undershtand?”

“Yes, mamma.”

“Good boysh.” She patted each boy on their bottom, “Now go serve them supper.”



The root cellar was dark. The floor was a dirt floor, and crawling with all sorts of unseen bugs. Carrie shivered in the corner with Natalie sleeping peacefully next to her. She was afraid to move. The darkness was thick, even with her eyes adjusted they couldn’t see her own hands in front of her. She had gripped Natalie’s hand and hadn’t let go since she’d been awake.

Friday, September 25, 2009

u n me


we live




in the morning mists



before the sun burns it away



we live in between



today and yesterday



we’re the faceless lovers



of vivid dreams



the words that never reach



the tip of the tongue



we’re the kiss



that’s cut short



we’re the back story



of a well written script



the scent of warm honey



hidden within a forest



the ebb of an ocean wave



drifting back out to sea



the mirage



on steaming tarmac



we live



in the lingering memory



of a beautiful dream…

Monday, September 21, 2009

The Ballad of Memphis (working)


you ever sit on a plane and wonder...well, yeah, you know what i'm talking about...you wonder if this is going to be the moment that god or whoever it is out there calls your ticket. when you're up high in the sky with nothing but gravity and the hard packed earth below you...yeah, you wonder...with my imagination...this is what i came up with...this is why i don't sleep well on planes....

You've done it. Here it is. This is the day. This is your day, Mr. Memphis Theodore Burroughs. You started out from humble beginings, selling magazine subscriptions, and then you designed tennis shoes that everyone wanted to wear. Pro athletes, movie stars, the public. You opened up your own clothing line and that soon opened up your own chain of stores. Then you began a record store, which turned into a music distributing company, Verocity Records. Every pop princess and Disney has-been sings for your label and the people buy them. You've monopolized downloaded media, and everyone, every-goddamned-one, downloads their music, video, books, ringtones from you! You moved on, you grew bigger, FiberDyne, Verocity Aerolines, and now this: Verocity Aeronauticals Star Plane. The Memphis Belle. The first airplane to break the stratosphere and orbit the earth.
Today, is her maiden flight. You've invited politicians, reporters, celebrities and of course your flavor of the week: Danica Hershey, your newest musical sensation discovery. Sure, she's 19 years your junior, but you're Memphis Burroughs. You've got more money than Trump and the prince of Burnai together. More moxie than Hugh Heffner. Tonight, you're going to fuck the shit out of her at over 100,000 feet above the Earths surface in your personal suite.
There is the usual ass kissing, the few nay sayers, but after the press conference and photos...The Memphis Belle is loaded up and awaiting clearance for take off on runway 17 of SeaTac airport. Her jets rumble, your passengers sip nervously on the cocktails and smile shyly at you. This is it. This is the moment. You are the man.
The tower calls out the clearance codes, the engine revs and the plane jerks. The g-force pulls you and the passengers into your soft memory foam seats.
You have a direct link to the cockpit. An earpiece. Within seconds the nose lifts and clouds race past. The Earth's gravity pulls at you and your guests. There is some nervous groans.
"No worries, folks." you announce over your personal speaker, "just as we explained in the briefing meetings, you'll experience a slight discomfort as gravity pulls at us, and your head may feel like it will explode...but rest assured...the crew will be leveling out the cabin pressure..."
The secondary boosters kick in and the Memphis rips through turbulence like a ginsu. You tap the button to the cockpit.
"Any problems, captain?" you whisper.
"No, sir." he answers obediantly, "all systems check okay, we should be breaking through the stratosphere in a few minutes."
"Excellent. You've done well, captain, much appreciated for the smooth flight."
And that was the wrong thing to say. You knew it was. In fact, after you said it, it felt bad in your mouth like diet soda. Because from that moment on, things went bad. Things went really bad.
It started when Kevin Newmann, yes, the action hero movie star, threw up into his cocktail glass. Then he unbuckled his seat belt and attempted to get up to use the bathroom. The idiot got up. The plane was doing mach 7 and about to break through the atmosphere into space and he got up out of his seat.
"I've got to puuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu........!" was all that came out of his mouth as he was ripped out of his standing position and slammed through the back wall into the cabin area. He suffered several broken bones, a ruptured kidney, and many lacerations. His career was done. But that is entirely irrelavent.
Just before the Memphis Belle broke through the atmosphere there was a rumble from beneath the plane.
"Captain?" you call through your monitor, "Is everything okay? What was that?"
"Instruments are reading normal, sir." you notice a hint of nervousness in that voice, "No alarms and I just ran a systems check....doesn't seem to be anything..."
"What the hell was that noise that came from underneath us?" the direction your moment of glory is going is starting to piss you off.
"I can't be sure, sir."
"You can't be sure? What do you mean you can't be sure??"
You look up at Danica, she could care less. She's busy looking out the window watching the the earth in full view. The rest of your passengers however, are shaken. After Newman's exit, and the rumble of the undercarriage, they're not sure if they wanted to take a magic carpet ride with Mr. Memphis Burroughs.
"The captain will be leveling off and we'll be reaching orbital pattern in a few moments, folks." you announce, "As soon as we level off, we'll have a look at Mr. Newman's injuries. But please, do not attempt to get out of your seats until we've reached enertial dampening. The light will come on momentarily."
There is concern on some faces for the fallen actor. Some, these are rich people on board, afterall, and they didn't become that way by caring about people. There were just a few bleeding hearts here and there...and you yourself had done some philandering in your long rich career. The Humane Society, the children's cancer fund, hell you even shaved that beautiful mane of yours for St. Baldrick's the children's cancer fundraising event.
The bell goes off. Ding Dong (you wanted that Star Trek sound...the tooweeee-ooo...but they couldn't put it in) The seatbelt light shuts off.
"The seat belt light is now off." the captain speaks, "it is now safe to move about the cabin area. On behalf of Verocity Aerolines, Mr. Burroughs, and my crew, we'd like to thank you for joining us on our maiden flight through orbit. You may experience a slight queeziness as you'll experience the zero-gravity effect in the cabin. We do have gravitational stabilizers equipped in the cabin, but I thought it would be a treat to experience zero gravity. If there is any discomfort during your flight, please be sure to let our staff know."
You feel proud again. Incidents forgotten already. Even as famous Dr. Gregory Bohnstetter, head of cardiology at the Mayo Clinic, the guy who put in 3 stents in your own pulminary system, patched up Mr. Newman and made him as comfortable as he could with a few doses of morphine.
Everyone unbuckles and floats towards the port windows. The Earth glows filling every window. People 'oooo' and 'aahhh'. Some are having problems navigating their way through zero gravity.
"Folks," you begin your glory speech. "thank yew so much for joining me on this maiden flight. A few bumps and bruises are to be expected and ah pray that Mistuh Newman will recover from his injuries which ah will cover all expenses. In the meantime, ladies and gentlemen, please enjoy yourselves. Mi casa es su casa."
There is the congradulatory handshakes, the shallow shoulder pats and kisses.
"You've opened a doorway, Mr. Burroughs." compliments a congressman from Texas, "You've opened the future to space flight for the average citizen."
"Thank you, Mr. Rice." you smile and reach into your breast pocket for your viagra pills.
You look over at Danica, who is staring in awe at the planetscape, this one's for her. You pop the blue pill into your mouth and walk over to her.
"Honey." you put your arm around her waist, "ah'm going up to the cockpit to personally congratulate my crew for a bit, would yew be a dear and meet me in our suite in say....15 minutes?"
"Sure, honey." she says, in her sweet young voice giving you that coy look that you know means, do what you want to me, just make me rich and famous.
You make your way to the cockpit. You press your finger on the keypad by the locked cabin door. A light reads your prints and the door hisses ajar. You open the door and walk into the cockpit which is lit up with the most hi-tech avionic equipment money can buy. Of course, you didn't have to buy any of it because you own FiberDyne that supplied the cable and fiberoptics, and you own Verocity Aeronauticals which provided the rest of the material.
"Captain," you pat him on the shoulder and then look around at the other 3 crew members,"Gentlemen. Ah can't thank y'all enough for a job well done. Congratulations to yew boys, now let's make sure yew git us all home safe and sound as well."

Friday, September 18, 2009

couples


you don't love me
you're just used to me
this isn't at all
what i thought we were
going to be
cuddling in bed
the feeling is dead
"i love you"
only said in the head
good night kiss
what i miss
the passion and moaning
now it's come to this
dusty dry arid plain
nothing left but human stain
what was once
naked sore rugged love
now just rolling over
to sleep
good night, darling